“A nun I know once told me she kept begging God
to take her character defects away from her.
After years of this prayer, God finally got back to her:
I’m not going to take anything away from you, you have to give it to Me.”
Anne Lamott, Help Thanks Wow: The Three Essential Prayers
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The first time I read this, I skipped right over it, eager to get to the rest of the book.
The second time I read it, I paused.
The third time I read it, I wondered. Does God want me to give Him my Chronic Fatigue?
So, I gave it to Him.
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Nothing much happened. Just an unclenching of teeth and fists. Just a peace I wasn’t expecting, a peace I have never felt when thinking about my fatigue.
I can’t wait to see what God does next. I’ll let you know.
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord.
“They are plans for good and not for disaster,
to give you a future and a hope.
Jeremiah 29:11 NLT